Seeking to be closer to HIM

Im not a NEWBIE with my faith, but just recently i DECLARE that i want to build stronger RELATIONSHIP with Our Lord JESUS CHRIST. ~Its not that i want to be “GOODY GOODY” person or a “HOLY” to others, but to be HOLY and SHAMELESS to my Father, Almighty. I dont know if you ever felt the urge of seeking for His presence, not just because your broke or have a major problem but the sense of being complete and wanted peace.

I seek God many times in my life, and many times i failed because the temptation is just much stronger than my faith. And due to that, i usually end up making a bad choice and in a FUCKED UP situation. But still God makes his weird way to pull me back to HIM… And i so grateful that he does that.

2 weeks ago, i finally had the courage to sign up for a VICTORY GROUP (a church groupss of individual with same faith from a same church). So i fill-up a card with my name, age and civil status. I checked “SINGLE” and wrote on the side “mother”, just to make sure ill belong to a group with same situation.

Then last week ago, someone texted and invited me to their group. I replied and went this last sunday to meet her. I call her “N”, she’s very witty, younger than me and older in faith. We did this “121” or 1 on 1, by getting to know each other and sharing each other experiences with the grace of the LORD.

It was exciting, coz finally i have someone i can talk and go to that will help me build a stronger relationship with God. We used this booklet, as a guide. Actually she gave it to me as a gift. (ehem! its not for free) There are 7 stages to discuss, 1 stage per meeting.


Now let me take you to my “121” journey..


Stop TRUSTING in yourself and just TRUST in Jesus Christ alone for salvation.

8For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith – and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God – 9not by works, so that no one can boast (EPHESIANS 2:8,9)

How great is that? not to worry and just trusting. i know its hard to trust everything in one person, especially to someone you cant see on a daily basis or ever!. But isn’t great  that there is someone who so more than willing to help you carry everything your thinking and worrying about.  when you analyze or trying to understand your own thought, mostly it end up as mess. And you end up more on thinking and worrying again. You should trust His WILL for you, because what he wants for us is whats good for us.

Turn away from everything the bible calls sin

Nevertheless, God’s solid foundation stand firm, sealed with this inscription: “the Lord knows those who are his,” and, “everyone who confesses the name of the Lord must turn away from wickedness.” (2 TIMOTHY 2:19)

As my mentor “N” read this to me. I told her this will the most challenging part, because we sinned everyday. We are Human Being, and its our nature. Its our nature to be lustful, to be angry, to be insensitive to others, to keep bitterness in our heart and lots of bad things. SO ITS HARD to turn away to something you are not aware your doing. But you know what!, “if there is a will, there is a way” and if you really focus your eyes to Jesus. You might not avoid sin, but you will be aware and you will know how to stop or react.

I prayed about this a long time ago, for God to tell me what to do or how to avoid things that make me shameful to his eyes. In my amaze every time there is something bad that’s going to happen that eventually gonna  affect on people. I usually have dreams before it happens. Dreams that i acted BADLY, and waking up on that  gives me an opportunity to reflect. And when the same situation arise (usually as soon i woke up), i know what to do. YES it maybe a coincidence, but it happened to me more the twice. AS IN the same situation in my dreams (FREAKY!). The only difference is my reaction to the situation and the result. I consider that as a gift.

But as simple as you know its a sin and you know there is a  guilt, it is enough stop whatever it is.

Attend a small group for personal discipleship and weekly worship services.

Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another – and all the more as you see the Day approaching. (HEBREW 10:25)

I did attempt many times to get into a victory group, but i usually ignore their texts or invites because i don’t have time or don’t want to waste my time on it. Even in reading a bible, ill read straight for a week, then ill just got bored and stop. So somehow giving up on whats important was became a habit.

But now i realize the importance of having someone who can guide you to your walk with God. Its really nice you have a friend with the same faith, someone who can pray for you, someone who can pray with you and someone who can remind you the right path to take 🙂

Its like a coal with fire, if you dont feed the coal with more coal as it burns. The fire will eventually die. But if you put more coal on it, the fire will be stronger.

Read and obey your bible everyday.

Do not let this Book of the law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it.Then you will be prosperous and successful.” (JOSHUA 1:8)

If you read a bible for the sake of just reading it, you will eventually fail to finish it cover to cover 🙂 IT WILL DEFINITELY BORE you OUT! ive been there. i will just read half a chapter and im gone to wonderland.

But if your seeking for God, for guidance, for sense of completeness, for hope, then bible is your first bet than a chick flick story book. The bible is a very interesting book, it has horror, action, suspense, drama, bit of comedy, revelations, and the best part is ITS REALLY TALKING ABOUT YOUR SALVATION, and HOW GOD LOVES YOU by giving His only SON (Unlike other books that has a certain target market). Plus its a guidelines how to live your life according to our Father.

Tell others about your new relationship with Christ

“19Jesus did not let him, but said, “Go home to your family and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.”20 So the man went away and began to tell in the Decapolis how much Jesus had done for him. And all the people were amazed. (MARK 5: 19,20)

Have you ever experience the first time you said I LOVE YOU/YES/I DO to your love one? The excitement, the butterfly in your stomach and the exploding of feelings that you wanted to TELL the whole WORLD that you love that person? Its the same with having a relationship with JESUS. No shame will cover you emotion from SHOUTING how you are LOVE and BLESS with God’s GRACE 🙂


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